Thursday, August 24, 2006
And that's What I Go Through ..
Recess.I dreaded.I dread the way I feel so....alone.So....wall flower.So.......fuck-ed up.No. I will NOT sit there, all alone, with a oh-pity-me look on my face.No. Freaking. WAY.That Joey.Must be sleeping at home when I was wandering.So I wandered, canteen, parade square, library, borrow books, canteen, toilet, canteen, and then the way to library AGAIN.I saw alicia on the way to somewhere. Anywhere.She asked me what's wrong. And naturally, 'It's Nothing.'She, naturally, 'Don't Lie.'Ha. If she knew how much I lie.Haha. Then Renee and Vedelene caught me as I was being dragged into the canteen AGAIN. Again, the concerned, 'what Happened.'And then I sort of blurt out how I was wandering about with nothing to do, then NO FRIENDS too. Ha-Freaking-Ha.She was like 'You have us!'And I burst out. Crying. Don't Know WHY. dontask.So I was crying away, sitting on the bench, Finally having someone who cared.And harder I cried.Madness, I know.Then I was like 'See laa make me cry. Got tissue?'Then I went toileting again.Any idea what I go through every single day?No?Have one. I dunno either.How I managed without going zonkers.Ha.me, dying inside, killing meself.
8:13 PM
